This Is Where I Begin

It's been years since you left
but the pain is still the same
I'm looking for answers
a way out of this charade.

Been reading ages of philosophy
searching for a meaning
and it's hard not to say
there's nothing there
who are we kidding?

//
So much anger
and so much pain
embrace it all
and just go your way

So much anger
and so much pain
embrace it all
and just go your way
//

Remembering past happiness
just fuels the depression
compared to yesterday
today's my funeral procession

That's it, I'm back in the now
no more cuts and tears
why give them to someone
that's forever gone

//
So much anger
and so much pain
embrace it all
and just go your way

So much anger
and so much pain
embrace it all
and just go your way
//

Now when I drink
and slowly kill myself
at least I'll know I do it for me
and no one else
this is where I begin

Meaning is not in books
or someone's love
you gotta create it
not wait for a sign from above

//
So much anger
and so much pain
embrace it all
and just go your way

So much anger
and so much pain
embrace it all
and just go your way
//